Recently I’ve been thinking about what this blog stands for.
Originally, I chose the name “A Happy Shade of Blue” because I felt like it captured the essence of my goal of searching for rays of light + positivity amongst negative or difficult times.
Like most things, this blog has changed as it has formed and has included topics that I never expected to write about- like beauty + style. I love to write about what I’m wearing, but I also want to refocus this blog on why I started it in the first place.
So, welcome to the first post in a new series “A Happy Shade of Blue,” named after the blog itself.
In these posts I will be sharing something “blue,” like a challenging obstacle I faced, emotional hardship, or anything else that seems to be bad / negative. Then, I will try my best to pull some happiness- something of value + purpose, learning experience, or personal growth- from the blue. And voila, a happy shade of blue!
Since my most recent experiences were during last quarter of college, that’s what I will be sharing today.
This is a new type of post for me + I’d appreciate your feedback in the comments! Let me know if you’d like to see more of these kinds of posts or if anything isn’t clear 🙂 Thank you for reading + hope you enjoy!
Looking back on the last 3 months of my life it feels like it went by both fast + also drudingly slow.
The day-to-day is what felt like it lasted forever. The hundreds (thousands?) of pages of Supreme Court cases, news articles, books, and textbook chapters piled on every week making this the most reading-heavy quarter I’ve had so far.
Monday-Friday I was either in class, studying in the library or coffee shop, or at home eating dinner or getting ready for bed.
There was little to no free time during the week and weekends were for catching up on sleep and, of course, readings.
The obvious good thing here was that I was willingly taking these classes because I enjoyed the material. I took my first two law classes and found myself very interested. Although the work was very difficult, it not only helped me to succeed academically but also to get closer to narrowing down my interests + possible career paths.
At the same time, I started the school year off living in a new place and moved again during the second month of the quarter. If you’ve moved, then you probably know that it is a time + energy exhaustive process. With my only free time being on weekends I had no idea how I would be able to pack my life up + readjust so quickly. On top of that, I’m someone who needs my living space to be 100% organized + aesthetically pleasing (cute).
Luckily, we were able to move over a 3-day weekend. I started packing late the night before, but we got it all done and my room was unpacked in just a few hours.
In a weird, unexpected way moving sort of forced me to take a much-needed break from school work. And, it brought me to new work spaces within my new house that I enjoy.
More than anything, though, it reminded me that life requires flexibility. And the easier you accept that, the easier of a time you’ll have. (For those of you who had Mrs. Hoerling as a social studies teacher in junior high, you’ll remember her teaching us the “F-word.”
Once I was mostly settled in, my focus shifted back to working my butt off towards academics. Eventually, after a jam-packed week of finals that consisted of tens of hours spent in the library + the hardest test I’ve ever taken, autumn quarter of my junior year was done.
In that sense, the weeks added up quickly and I was surprised at how fast the quarter went by.
Shortly after, I received my final grades and they proved to me that hard work is hard, but it is easier + meaningful if you are truly interested in the work.
It was another dean’s list quarter on the books.
Although the workload and move caused me much stress in the moment, it also led me to the Law, Societies, & Justice program, to realizing my passion for studying the law + inequalities surrounding it, and to being more flexible about the timing of events that are out of my control.
Last quarter was, in many ways, the toughest yet but it also was the most rewarding.
I learned a lot about constitutional rights, racial and economic inequalities in the application of the law, and about myself- what I care about + what I am and am not okay with. At the end of the day, I also realized that having a career or a future job someday that means something is paramount to me. What exactly that will look like you + I will both have to wait to find out haha.
I hope you liked this post, it’s new for me too! Again, I always appreciate your feedback 🙂
Thank you thank you for reading what I write + following along with my life, that’s the coolest thing!